讓我放縱一次

讓我放縱一次 狠狠拔掉心中的那根刺

讓我放縱一次 丟掉所有虛僞的掩飾

讓我放縱一次 做一些你做夢也想不到的事

讓我放縱一次 人偶爾要讓自己失去理智

讓我放縱一次 就算到最後我們都是凡夫俗子

讓我放縱一次 不想再小心翼翼對待你的名字

讓我放縱一次 是時候輪到我放肆 我其實很不可一世

讓我放縱一次 就算到死我們仍是白癡

讓我放縱一次 把今天當作世界末日

i feel horrid. everything’s smooth sailing except … bleh.

i just find it sad that things seem to be coming to an end, and nothing i do will make the show go on. i think we blew our chances. he blew his and i blew mine.

每一次的心动都那么不了了之,问题出在我身上吗?是我太操之过急了吗。。。 我有点灰心。我不知道,自己该做些什么,还能做什么。会过去的吧? 希望这只是暂时的。我不想一直这样,一颗心悬在半空中, 忐忑不安。

回忆也许美 可是正在飞走对不对

感触

今天我睡得好奢侈,可是一点愧疚感也没有! 那是我应得的休息!

这几天让我看清楚,谁才是我可以在逆境时依靠的朋友,谁是只有在吃喝玩乐时才会兴致勃勃的朋友。

友谊的长短并不代表什么,因为认识多年的朋友都不一定会在我需要时陪在我身边。

朋友有心与否,只能在非常时期才看得到, 而且,往往都是在我意料之外的人。

起初我真的很失望,现在已看开。无论是感情或友情,都不可能对两边都公平。

谁是靠得住的,谁是靠不住的,都一清二楚了。谢谢那些陪伴我度过寂寞的朋友, 我真的很感激有你们。

Apart from a Damn Good Full Body Massage

the next thing I need is patience in copious amounts. Won’t somebody sell me patience by the container-load? I am willing to pay a good price.

Thanks (partly) to PMS and my innate intolerance for commonsenselessness, I now have absolutely no patience for:

  1. unbelievably unenlightened humans and hardware, namely, printers. EPSON is the worst brand anyone can buy!
  2. weird people who wait until the last nanosecond to wrestle their way out of the MRT, going “Skuse me Skuse me!”. Did they assume everyone’s going to alight at the same stop? Were they too lost in their melancholic thoughts? Ah, they didn’t realise it was time to alight……. bless the poor souls! Skuse me lor, that’s a damn sorry excuse.
  3. self-pitying people who give lame excuses. Really, I tried so hard not to roll my eyes leh. Grow up, okay? Everybody’s got their own lives to lead and things NEVER go according to plan. Life wouldn’t be worth living if everything went as planned. I hope I needn’t deal with your lame excuses/childish + unrealistic expectations anymore. 下次再這樣,我就不會給面子了, 真的。 I will not try to conceal my irritation the next time.

煎熬的一個星期總算挨過了,我好想休息。。 可是時間並不允許。在這種時候真的希望有人為我捶捶背, 告訴我什麽都別管了,靜靜的休息吧, 天塌下来有我顶。

Second day at pushcart. I’m home now though, and I’m glad to say my bodily aches have more or less left me for greener pastures.

Was really touched to see Guohao – he helped me set up and bought so many items for his girlfriend! 谢谢支持!!You made my day!

Sales aren’t fantastic, and Yong Yang very kindly imparted some durian-selling tactics that seriously didnt inspire me…. passing them off as entertainment for my boring day didnt really help either. Haha. I never really discovered his crappy side until recently.

It’s less tiring and more rewarding income-wise if I did my usual relief teaching/writing, people always tell me that.

But they offer such vastly different experiences and can hardly be compared side by side. It can be a lonely affair though, tending a stall all by myself. I felt a bit forlorn when I had trouble packing up the cart at the end of the day. An extra pair of hands would be so nice.

Does anyone own a wireless mouse? I bought one at $21 yesterday and it’s not working! 1000 BAHS to the trouble of exchanging it!!

還有四天。 我一定要撐下去。