reality check

i am still as impatient, bad-tempered and presumptuous – nothing much has changed.

没想象中那么百毒不侵 我是座活火山

一触即发 这是我今天的心情

就是无法容忍 没有耐心 有点失控

就会不管三七二十一的发飙

就看那个人好欺负 我其实是个小人

气的很想骂粗话

动手的画面也有浮现在脑海里

可怕吧。

需要不断努力修行啊。

刚好看到这篇: http://chan1.org/ddp/channews/03-1985.html

摘:

Daily practice is useful for two reasons: it maintains your interest and enthusiasm for the practice, and it reminds you that you are a practitioner. In being so reminded, you should feel how inappropriate it is to be vexed by life’s ups and downs. But the deeper sense of peace can only be known through intensive practice for an extended period.

是个要我精进修行的启示了。

crisis hotline operator

ISFP’s can be over-accepting of others and need to be more skeptical at times. (bleh)

Their need to please everyone makes them reluctant to critique any one but themselves. (FALSE!)
This excessive desire to trust others makes them targets for hurt feelings and disadvantaged relationships. (I seldom feel disadvantaged) Long-range planning and adherence to policies can be their downfall. When the freedom to act on their instincts is limited, ISFP’s become bored, restless, and passively defiant. (YALOR!) They are skilled at seeming to comply with regulations while annoying those who cause them distress. (eerily true, i have to tell cell abt this!)

If stress continues to build, ISFP’s will penalize others through self-degrading behavior. This behavior has the tendency to divert accountability away from themselves and onto others who they blame for their plight. (YES!!!) This restores the excitement back into ISFP’s lives while at the same time getting even with their accused oppressors. Rationalizing their responsibilities, stressed-out ISFP’s attempt to find their way out of unstimulating circumstances through seeking inappropriate thrills. (omyGOSH I AM SHOCKED at how accurate this can be!! and i really love the term inappropriate thrills – my life is bursting with them)

Careers

This lists represent careers and jobs people of your type tend to enjoy doing. The job requirements are similar to the personality tendencies of your personality type. It is important to remember that this is not a list of all the jobs possible. And it is very important to remember that people can, and frequently do, fill jobs that are dissimilar to their personality… this happens all the time…and sometimes works out quite well.

bookkeeper
clerical supervisor
dental assistant
physical therapist
mechanic
radiology technologist
surveyor
chef
forester
geologist
landscaper designer
crisis hotline operator
teacher: elementary
beautician
typist
jeweler
gardener
potter
painter
botanist
marine biologist
social worker

aren’t these jobs a little too different from each other! i can only imagine myself as a gardener or chef, out of this list. crisis hotline is damn cool though.

The opening of 爱之旅 was great despite my nonsensical speech – all thanks to fellow artists Reb, Jiu Jian and of course dear family and friends!!!

Thank you YMers: Cell, Billy, Renee, Hanyuan, Jalyn, Cihui, Raymond, Sab, Jie Ming, Eric, Wah Teck, Betty

Thank you No-Particular-Category friends Wenjian, Guohao

Thank you Re:Kindle Love cast and crew!

Thank you the great people from The Arts House: Sher, Sarah

And well-wishers Sea Ming and Chyork!

I’m damn grateful for my parents too, they’re the ripening of my good karma from a million past lives.

Please support if you haven’t already!! Remember to sign the guestbook! Gallery opens 10am-10pm daily, free admission.

Journey of Love Photo Exhibition 《爱之旅》摄影展

Featuring Jiu Jian, Rebecca Ling and Poh Yong Hui (aka me)

Host:
Type:
Network:
Global
Start Time:
Thursday, 14 January 2010 at 19:00
End Time:
Monday, 15 February 2010 at 22:00
Location:
Print Gallery, The Arts House
Street:
1 Old Parliament Lane

I feel incredibly blessed right now. Everyone has been so patient, gracious and loving with me despite all my evil thoughts and horrible idiosyncracies. It’s just not something that I can allow myself to take for granted.

It’s thanks to their patience and generosity that I live with no fear and no worries. Well, relatively, at least. I am very grateful to have all this great company around me.

Blessed people who feel gratitude will continue to receive bliss. It’s true. Let’s all remember to be grateful.

I woke up today and found to my dismay that my room looks exactly the same as how I left it – as if a tsunami had just swept through it. (My house elf was supposed to put everything in order.)

Then I scrambled out of bed, slipped and fell, and let out an expletive.

Recalling my dream of getting fined by SingTel for speaking Hokkien over the phone, I let out another.

At the bus stop I wished death upon a smoker while falling asleep from the long wait.

Somebody woke me up when the bus reached its last stop.

My Teh siudai is overwhelmingly siap today.

I opened my Inbox and saw an email which I don’t know how to answer.

I fell off the chair when I was retrieving GUM from the shelves just now.

The day cannot get any better.