saw a spider while on the toilet
that might be me in a future life
we tend to think we will live forever
but all we have is now
what’s not to like about my life now?
great friends, wonderful lover, happy family, slow living
no debt, only bills i pay are credit card and handphone
shelter over my head, rent-free
good health (most importantly)
overseas trips, even (restraint!!)
life is perfect, much as i try to avoid using this word for fear of over-stating things
i must be the happiest unemployed person there is
is there a problem with me being semi-employed??????
half of me says yes.
the other (hedonistic, lazy, useless) half says it’s perfectly fine..
my Zen conscious says: just put 100% in whatever i’m doing
100% love and presence for all loved ones
100% concentration when i’m working (totally guilty of giving only 20%)
100% mindfulness, moment to moment
and it will answer every question that surfaces in my too-much-thinking mind
i must strive on with diligence!
stop wasting my precious human life!