Yesterday I very nearly cried. But I’m fine. My life, humdrum as it is, will not revolve around enigmatic idiots. The passion has fizzled out and I don’t exactly miss it. I don’t wish to spend my (insert name of glorious fruit)-eating minutes feeling forlorn and wistful. I will eat the last box tomorrow with all my past fervour. 有就有,没有就没有, 地球照常运转,太阳依旧升起!

Accompanied papa to eye centre for his cataract op. Cataract leh! Although they still have a healthy sense of humour, I must admit my parents’ health is giving in to age. My mum sprained her left knee in Bangkok (on the first night!) and I brought her to the Bumrungrad International Hospital, which turned out to really international, with a translator for every language in the world. I felt really grown-up to handle the crisis without “adult intervention”, save for some very useful advice given by the good people from the NTUC INCOME SOS hotline. My mum had a jab and we found ourselves navigating the winding alleys of Jatujak an hour later. She couldn’t walk without aid before that! Nothing can separate a woman and her shopping.

I slowly feel the switching of roles between my parents and me: very often, they are now the cared-for while I am the caregiver. I am comfortable with my newfound role thus far, but am uncertain about the future. I guess I will learn along the way. Bringing papa to his follow-up tomorrow! 8.30 am- that’s chickentikkamasala early. Wonder if I’ll see Brabra!

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Lurve.

Happy Valentine’s Day, everyvun.

If you’d like to profess your love to someone here’s a cute way to do it: http://bureauofcommunication.com/compose/romanticintent

Went for wsdp at Bras Basah with mum and sis. It’s my second time hearing Sister Sylvia Bay speak and she’s such a good speaker!

Some quotes:

 “Love is a feeling. Period. A feeling that arises in the presence of something.”

“Where there’s a very strong hate, there’s a very strong want.”

“The more you think about yourself, the less time you have for others.”

“Pain is due to two things: unmet expectations and attachment to the good feelings you get when you’re in love.”

Hmm. I should stop letting soppy love songs like 氧气 (如果你爱我 你会来找我 你会知道我 快不能活) jeopardize my sanity.

Looked in the mirror that day and saw that my nose is too big for my own good.

Sometimes I think I’m spoilt rotten by my parents.

My papa has enthusiastically stashed several NTUC recycling bags in our luggage so he could “help carry my shopping”.

And he pays for all the shopping too….

My mummy says she’ll treat me to Ah Mei’s concert because I’m “not earning any money”.

Aww i love them to bits.

告诉自己, 要惜福啊。

对不起, 我只爱自己

还是早日了断 这种酝酿中的关系

让它云淡风轻

别怪我无情 别每天传简讯 别对我太贴心

你的关心 我实在受不起

我只有一句”对不起, 我只爱自己”

自私得可以 我怎么也不想取悦你

对你的行踪和喜好 没多大兴趣

不是耍你 也没故弄玄虚

只是我太爱自己

别再玩下去

我玩不起 我没力气 我不想伤害你

点到为止吧 大家别伤和气

你精心的设计 我全都心领

希望你也多爱自己

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献给C君,虽然他毫不知情

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你是我心中那一现的昙花

你是我心中那一现的昙花

美丽无比 举世闻名

世人称羡的瑰丽

小心翼翼 捧在手里

多怕你飞出去

我的情绪在你手里

刮风下雨 我都依你

太多的叛逆 风云崛起

我后悔莫及

现在只能谢谢你

让我有彩色回忆

全刻心里

不会忘记 很难忘记

在你之后 碰不到奇迹

爱情几乎绝迹

你是我心中那一现的昙花

花开时美丽 凋谢后

我才发现 一切已过去

你真的离我而去

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昙花,昙花属,是仙人掌科植物,原产于南非、墨西哥等地区,是属于热带沙漠里的旱生性植物。茎扁柱形,是和茎三角柱形量天尺区别的关键特征。花大型,盛开时如碗口大,生于叶状枝的边缘,花重瓣、纯白色,花瓣披针形,晚间开放,至次日早凋谢。开花时长4,5个小时,因此用昙花一现来形容时间很短、稍纵即逝的机遇。

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献给你, 有点不真实的你

还是会寂寞

早已忘了想你的滋味是什么
因为每分每秒都被你占据在心中
你的一举一动牽扯在我生活的隙縫
誰能告诉我离开你的我会有多自由

也曾想过躲進別人溫暖的怀中
可是这么一來就一點意义也沒有
我的高尚情操一直不断提醒着我
离开你的我不论过多久还是會寂寞

別对我小心翼翼
別让我看輕你
跟著我勇敢的走下去
別劝我回心转意
這不是廉價的愛情
看著我對我說真愛我

如果生命有成绩单

YOUR REPORT CARD:
Love C
Friends and Family A+
Body B
Mind B
Finance / Career A

HAHAHA…… i think Body shd be C. and Finance, B. Mind is A LOR!

Love C…. yes accurate.

just when i thought i could finally fall in love with someone, i realised things arent always what they seem. more interaction really lets you know if you could get along. communication is so important, and i guess i havent found someone who speaks the same language as me. oh wells maybe i shdnt take such a pragmatic approach to something so irrational.

but the prospect of falling in love was really kinda ticklish to the heart. a bit bittersweet, slight uncertainty. 大概只是贪恋那种忐忑的感觉。陷下去后又嫌痛苦。 人就是这样!