Our vegetarian wedding

2013 will be a busy year for us, with the new home and wedding happening within a span of months.

We are more excited about our home than the wedding.

Planning for the wedding (I cringe to say *my* wedding) makes me feel self-indulgent. I don’t think I would regret it if we did away with a wedding, and jumped straight to married life in our new home 😛 But Derek wants it. I think.

To minimise the carbon footprint of this event, we’ve decided to hold a vegetarian wedding party.

Derek does not fancy Chinese vegetarian food, so we are going for western.

Our number 1 preference is Flutes at the Fort, which is able to do vegetarian weddings. Its website rightly calls it a hidden treasure: I love that the restaurant is housed in an old colonial house that used to be firemen’s quarters, tucked away in lush foliage behind the Civil Defense Museum. It is a ten-minute walk away from City Hall MRT, which is incredibly convenient as far as colonial-housed restaurants go (Think Dempsey Hill, Rochester, Bukit Timah). We also went there for dinner on my birthday, and loved the food, ambience, and service. Unfortunately, they are making plans to renovate and can only accept bookings from July onwards, which is just too late and too bad for us. One thing though – they only provide plated service, which does not go down well with our parents. They have the perception that western plated meals are small in serving, unable to satisfy guests, and hence, not “presentable”. I think we need to treat them to a meal there before they can change their minds.

Second choice: The Halia

This restaurant is very interesting. When I first enquired a few months ago, their event coordinator said they do not do vegetarian weddings, as “Halia is a modern European fine dining restaurant (sic)“. It was a most peculiar reason, as I never knew vegetarianism and European fine dining were mutually exclusive. She also asked “Vegetarian meaning no meat, no seafood?” to which I rolled my eyes and said: “Seafood is meat what!” I am surprised that the staff from a reputable restaurant like Halia did not know what vegetarian food meant… From our conversation, I get the feeling that she might have equated the word “vegetarian” with 斋米粉. After spotting a vegetarian menu on their website, I felt compelled to get to the bottom of this. So I messaged them on Facebook, hoping to get a second opinion from the FB admin who should be their marcomms person. A few days later, the same event coordinator called me, and apologised for the “miscommunication”. It turned out that they can host vegetarian weddings; what a surprise. I am now awaiting their vegetarian buffet menu. They have two locations: Botanic Gardens and Raffles Hotel. I am inclined to go with Raffles Hotel because of its convenient location. I have heard of people getting lost inside Botanic Gardens.

Third choice: Artichoke Cafe

Which is an accidental google find. So convenient, at Middle Road! I pass by Sculpture Square all the time, but I’ve never noticed its existence. From the online pics, it looks casual, relaxed and unpretentious*eyes hover upwards*. I like that. But I am still waiting for them to reply my email.

Fourth choice: Riders Cafe

Colonial housed restaurant in inaccessible Bukit Timah. Email bounced as their mailbox is full.

A turn of events

I have many updates for you, blog!

  1. After two good years of freelance work, I am now officially unemployed and looking for a full-time job. The job should: pay enough CPF so that I can finance my house, be something I enjoy doing, not upset my work-life balance.
  2. (I believe I need a good life outside of work in order to be happy)
  3. Derek proposed and I said yes (can say no meh?)
  4. The ROM and wedding was planned as a combined event for Dec 2013 but we have to ROM within the next few months just so we can buy a house together, and enjoy the $30K CPF grant while doing so
  5. Why the rush? We chanced upon a resale flat online and found it a good deal, albeit with a catch. 
  6. We have already signed the Option to Purchase, which means the flat is ours, subject to HDB’s terms
  7. That’s a rather big turn of events within a span of two months, lor.

As I am very free now, I have started to shortlist wedding venues and caterers. I’d be happy to do without a wedding ceremony and spend the money on renovations, but my father will not be happy. Derek does not want him to be unhappy, so I guess we’ll have to respect his wishes somewhat. We had wanted to cap wedding expenses at $5,000 because we felt spending anything more than that is irrational. The money could be put to better, more tangible use – like reno, buying furniture, paying off housing and car loans….

Unfortunately, I think we may have to double this budget, given the number of relatives my father wants to invite. He listed 60 people, and that’s excluding my own friends. In his books, the “closeness” of our relatives is defined by their attendance at my late grandparents’ wake, and if they paid any 白金, although I’ve never met some of the people he listed。 I was pissed off about how 爱面子and 思想老旧 he can be, after questioning him about the relatives he listed and why we should invite them. I think inviting people whom you are not close to gives them pressure – they probably don’t quite feel like coming in the first place but feel obliged to, since you asked. Awkward.

Am I willing to put down my likes and dislikes in order to please him? To what extent? Much as I yearn to hold a low-profile, quaint, intimate wedding attended only by people I know and like (max 50 pax), I don’t think I can without making my father feel disrespected. As I cannot imagine myself holding a banquet/hotel wedding (the pomp!), guess we’d have to find a middle ground and package it nicely before selling it to my father. No far-flung locations, no angmoh food, must have aircon, must have vegetarian options, no mosquitoes. To sum it up, friendly to the typical Chinese-Singaporean elderly. 

No matter what we do, we have to do it in a 心甘情愿 way. 钱要花得心甘情愿,才有意思。我还是相信,我们可以找到一个不用委屈自己,也能令老爸觉得有面子的方法。


The fare hikes will not stop me from taking cabs.

The feeling of cruising home in air-conditioned comfort after a long day at work, without having to battle queues and commuters who are too absorbed in their iPhones to move into the centre of the MRT carriage, is priceless. A one hour journey(with 2 transfers!) shortened to just 15 minutes is a lifesaver, especially on days where all my body parts conspire to ache.

I will still take cabs whenever my ailing body wills me to, provided I can get one at all. Ubi Ave 1 is just not the favourite haunt of cabbies.

Meeting Venerable Thubten Chodron: Reflections of a Buddhist Youth

Yesterday, I had the immense good karma to chat with Venerable Thubten Chodron and my fellow Dharma friends, Perry, Ching Wi, and Niki about our practice and innermost thoughts toward Dharma work. I went without any expectations; and I didn’t even have a single question in my head for the Venerable.

Perry started by sharing a framework for Dharma education, that he and Wen Jie, another Buddhist youth leader, came up with. In just a few words, Ven. Chodron summed up the key characteristics that such a framework should have:

  • People like to know there’s a structure to the path, so it’s good to provide this for them.
  • How the discussions happen is key. The session has to draw people out so they can share about what’s going on in their lives. (And isn’t this what the Dharma is all about?) When people come to Buddhist centres, they’re not just seeking information. They’re seeking virtuous friends and internal transformation. So we need to create an environment conducive for this type of sharing.

Perry mentioned the word “frustrated” quite a few times. Having been (actively and not-so-actively) involved in Dharma propagation since 2007, I, too, have been through periods of intense frustration and disappointment with the conditions and people that I had to work with. So I could understand Perry when he told us how frustrated he was, with the Dharma being so perfect, and yet he still hears people telling him they “are lost even after five years of being in a Buddhist group”.

I have come to realize that for me the best way to propagate the Dharma is to embody it. However, I do not practice very hard. The only sutra that I can memorise is the “Heart Sutra,” as my mother taught me to chant it when I was young. I attend meditation retreats, but I often doze off. I am seldom able to solve kong-ans (Zen riddles). I often have thoughts of aversion towards people I dislike. But I tell myself that it’s okay, as I am trying. Like all my spiritual friends, who are trying so hard to make time for self-cultivation and helping others at the same time, I do what I am able to do. This thought alone comforts and moves me deeply. I do not feel guilty, and I know I do not need to.

In my hiatus of sorts, I came to realize that being kind to myself is the only way I can be kind to others. I have to make time for my own practice. I am not there yet, but I am trying. Ven Chodron told me before I left that this was a good attitude to have.

Ven Chodron pointed out that people often do not see their own good qualities and that part of our Dharma practice is to point out people’s good qualities to them. We do this not to flatter them, but with a sincere mind that admires others’ virtues and good qualities. Hearing that others see goodness in them, people are encouraged to practice. I am fortunate enough to have friends and family who are extremely affirming of my talents and abilities, while wisely guiding me along the way. Perhaps we should go about surrounding ourselves with such friends.

Ven Chodron also reminded us that right motivation is the most important thing. Sometimes we can be so goal-oriented (having grown up in Singapore), that we forget about the process. But the Dharma is all about the process, she said. “All this doubt and frustration is part of the process. It is what you have to work with, to transform into the path. What you’re doing and the difficulties you experience are not wasted energy. Learning how to work constructively with these circumstances is the bodhisattva path.”

Thank you, Venerable, for this teaching. It was so gratifying to hear this, as I still feel helpless from time to time, wondering why things are this way and that, why I just cannot work with some people. “There are so many conditions that must come together, and everyone has different karma. You cannot control others’ present actions or the karma they bring with them from the past. All you can “control” is your own mind, your own motivation. In addition, when you work on a project that can benefit many people, its success depends not on your actions alone, but on the karma of all the people who have the potential to benefit from this project.”

With practice, I think I can learn to accept this fact of life, and my “trying” can be done with so much more joy. Ven. Chodron also advised that as Dharma workers, we have to ask ourselves, “What is it that moves me, and what do I aspire for?” When we know this clearly, we’ll be much more patient with ourselves.

Measuring the “success” of our Dharma propagation work could be an issue in results-oriented Singapore. Ven. Chodron shared that the way she measures success is not by numbers—the number of people attending an event or the amount of money raised for a beneficial project. Rather, success is when the friends and family of the people she works with say, “You’re a lot nicer person now. You don’t get as angry as you used to; you’re kinder and more peaceful now”. Isn’t this the Dharma’s function, and isn’t this what the work we’ve been doing is all about?

That day, I went home remembering all the affirmation, unconditional help, and scathingly honest advice that I have received from likeminded spiritual friends and teachers all these years, and I felt deeply grateful that our paths have crossed. That was the first time I could fully identify with what the Buddha said about spiritual friends, “Spiritual friendship is the whole of the holy life”; and my wish to practice hard so I can benefit myself and others, became stronger than before.

The writer is from Dharma In Action, a gathering of Buddhists from all walks of life collaborating on innovative and pertinent initiatives that foster stronger fellowship within the Buddhist community in Singapore. They see themselves as a dynamic platform where engaged Buddhists can share resources and work together open-mindedly, for the betterment of the Buddhist community, and ultimately, the society. Hence, they always welcome collaborations with fellow Buddhists and organizations. Website: www.dharmainaction.net





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Re:Kindle Love «再 见 爱 » is a tale about promised love that is destroyed under devastating circumstances. The story revolves around a young man and the various complexities which he faces with three women from different generations. It celebrates the optimism and hope that springs from true love, which is shared by a courageous man with those whom he loves during the journey of his life. But most of all, Re:Kindle Love «再 见 爱 » reminds us to cherish our present and our lives and to stay positive no matter how tough the going gets.

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Finally Aware

I was at the Aware EGM today. Honestly, I only started to read up on the controversy surrounding the women’s rights group about a week ago, and joined as a member on Friday. I really wanted to hear what both sides had to say and I figured this would be a once-in-a-lifetime experience.

To me, the EGM revealed the most beautiful and the ugliest sides of human nature. I saw how the old guard fought so courageously, with so much dignity and grace – not for power, money or fame – but for the good work of Aware to continue benefiting disadvantaged women, regardless of race, religion, and sexual orientation. They had goodness and truth in them, so they had nothing to fear and nothing to hide. The fact that many of them could stay calm and composed; making strong, sensible arguments despite all the false accusations and disrespectful language (“Shut up and sit down!” – I’m sure God would have approved of that) directed at them, was very admirable.

I also saw how the new guards were consumed with fear, anger and delusion as many members of the audience demanded truthful explanations for the uncountable misdeeds they have committed – which they couldn’t give, unsurprisingly. They were often rendered speechless when faced with questions from supporters of the old guard, and many of us shouted “Answer, answer!”. Hey, I’m quite proud of how civilised everyone was, minus the ones on stage – there were no physical fights, no namecalling, no personal attacks, despite all the injustice the old guard had to suffer.

Guilty of having told lie after lie, all they could do was to a) direct questions to the male legal counsel whom they hired with our money b) distract the audience from the crux of the issue by highlighting trivial, irrelevant details like “we slept at 4am everyday” (when what we really wanted to know was why they neglected to seek approval from other members for spending more than $20,000!) c) tell more lies.

There were just too many inconvenient truths that they didn’t have the moral courage to admit. Worse, they were unrepentant and frightfully arrogant.

This is not just about seeing homosexuals as human beings deserving of the right to love, be loved and pursue freedom like everyone else, it’s not just about religious bigotry: even if they were perfectly secular and accepting of homosexuals, I would vote them out of office – simply because the methods they employed to take over Aware have been deeply insidious and disturbingly underhanded. It’s a case study of McCarthyism in the Singapore context: they made use of loopholes in a weak Constitution, stripped longtime members of their roles, discrediting and misrepresenting them. These corporate highfliers – they took care to emphasize their educational and career achievements on one PowerPoint slide each – were visibly obsessed with what would probably make them high achievers in the corporate world: unscrupulousness, deception, and sheer dishonesty. Their orchestrated takeover of Aware has undeniably given Christians a bad name and has fanned feelings of distrust and suspicion towards members of this faith. This is especially so amongst people who aren’t well-informed of the different denominations within the Christian faith.

It just takes one group of deluded fundamentalists to ruin the decades of  interfaith work done by all religious groups since the racial riots. But I’m glad to see many real Christians (ie. those who adhere to the true teachings in the Bible) stand up and denounce this group.

It was interesting to see how passionate supporters of the old guard formed a long line to make their case – some waited 1.5 hours before they could speak – while supporters of the new guard (they sat in front of me) just sat passively in their seats – clapping occasionally when Josie says things like “Why can’t we do this like civilised people?”.

I wonder what went on in their minds. “Why am I here ah? Leg so tired from all that ushering and pretending to be friendly. Josie is marketing VP but dunno why can’t answer their questions hor. God bless her. Those old guard so rowdy, clap so loudly and scream somemore… very unwomanly leh. Call Josie liar somemore! (That’s me.) Shoot so many tough questions at them!  But God will bless them. Actually… I think I’m here cos my cell group leader told me to come? Aiya got free bus mah.” Something along these lines?

Anyway, I feel touched and charged with hope to see so many intelligent, talented, compassionate women and men stand up for justice to be served. It probably jerked many of us out of our apathy, although many people around me remain unconcerned about this issue.

I am reminded by this saga that evil will never triumph the good, and that most people in Singapore are still able to tell right from wrong. That’s better news than the very ungraceful (yet extremely gratifying) exit by those corporate witches.


I feel sad for people who base their actions and beliefs – their entire existence – on words printed in a book, and go on to impose these beliefs on other human beings. What value is there in their existence if they deny themselves the right to challenge ideas and examine their experiences?

It is perhaps timely to quote the Buddha here:

Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe simply because it has been handed down for many generations. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is written in Holy Scriptures. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of Teachers, elders or wise men. Believe only after careful observation and analysis, when you find that it agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all. Then accept it and live up to it.

— The Buddha, from the Kalama Sutta

We are praying for the Old Guards of AWARE to have renewed strength and clarity of mind to continue their fight against those plagued by greed, ignorance and delusion. They will overcome all obstacles and let truth and goodness prevail. Join us in our prayers at 9.30pm on 30 April 2009.

Also, do read:


Reply to Recent Comments and Claims About AWARE’s Sexuality Education Programme in Schools by Ministry of Education (The message is clear: Thio is a liar – many times over.)

How I Feel About The Whole AWARE Situation by Olivia Loh-Ing

http://sdhammika.blogspot.com/ by Ven. Dhammika

Watch this and then read this – these mice in human skin may be “corporate highfliers” (Huh? There are countless VPs in a bank!), but they aren’t good enough actresses. They tell lie after lie, and I’m glad their body language shows. Must have been too busy organising the coup and forgot about their acting classes.